pennystyles

i can feel you breathing down my neck. step back. just a little bit.

Thu, 18 May 2006 08:01:06 GMT

i dont know what to do with you anymore
your not helping and im not listening
i guess this is bad. i want thigns to work
but how can i with you being you
and me being me.
i want to change
but i seriously.
dont think im doing anything wrong
i feel like im being myself
i HAVE to be myself
otherwise who am i greg?
i dont know what to do
this is falling
and im holding on
but its hurting me
and im starting to think
maybe i am with you only because i need you.
please. dont ruint his for me
you were the best thing that happend to me
and now you and tyler are te only things that complete me.
what the fuck, do i let go?

This is life?

Wed, 10 May 2006 06:13:44 GMT

I don't get it.
I thought things are supposed to be the way you make them.
Whoever put that in my head lied.
I try to make the best of things, but it just doesn't work out.

I don't care if NOBODY reads this.
I don't want ANYONE to read this.
I just want TO change.

I think I set my standards for life to high.
I'm such a dissapointment.
FUCK GRADUATING ON TIME.
I could have done it if I Didn't take time off for work.
I could have done it if I didn't deliver a baby in the middle of the year.
I could have done it if I wasn't under so much stress.
If my mom could have helped JUST A LITTLE, I COULD HAVE DONE IT.
BUT NOPE, NOT NOW..NOT SOON.

I missed PROM. fuck it. im over it.

I don't care how life goes from here on...
As long as I'm happy and My son is happy.. thats all that fucken matters.
No more standards. No more boundries. No more rules.
FUCK YOU IF I'M NOT SUFFICE.
FUCK YOU.
I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT.
IM DOING RIGHT, NOT WRONG.
YOU'RE WRONG, FOR MAKING ME FEEL WRONG.

I'm doing O fucken K.

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oh. fucken. kay?

and still no sex. hahaha NO SEX! WTF!?!? NOPE. NO SEX.

I cant have sex with mixed feelings,
then i'll be a whore.

Take One

Sat, 06 May 2006 08:00:17 GMT

I made a new one.
because im a changed person.
haha.
not really. just because i discoverd love.
and im advising you not to. haha
just kidding again.
i just want a new one.